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Reality TV:
I don’t want to fall in love, so I won’t this time
But we’ve been living in your house for days, and it feels like it’s mine
Close the windows now, it’s a one-room kind of world
Where our arguments will just slip beneath the floor
I don’t want to fall in love, I’m doing just fine
I’ll spend my life inside a torn up van with this band of mine
Screaming “windows down” – play the iPhone radio
Singing “All My Friends” when I left them back at home
But I don’t want to waste my time, reality TV inside my head
Watching life when I should live in it instead
I’m too scared to hold someone --
Are you in love? You’re not.
Are you in love? You’re not.
Cause I don’t want to fall if you’ll run --
Are you coming back? You’re not.
Are you coming back? You’re not.
Oh no I don’t want to fall in love, I think I’m done
Got 150,000 songs and I can’t finish one
But if you asked me now I’d sing “I won’t let you go”
Cause every note I write I’m afraid I’ll be alone
But I don’t want to waste my time, reality TV inside my head
Watching life when I should live it instead
I’m too scared to hold someone --
Are you in love? You’re not.
Are you in love? You’re not.
Cause I don’t want to fall if you’ll run --
Are you coming back? You’re not.
Are you coming back? You’re not.
I don’t want to fall in love, so I won’t this time
But when I write you into all my songs, it feels like I might
Close the windows now, it’s a one-room kind of world
Where I’m falling now cause I cannot let you go
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Adeline:
come back find me when i’m 17
tell me i’m not ugly and write me poetry
found out you’re leaving, hold me in your skin
break down all the echoes of places we have been
Adeline
the good stuff’s always over
or i just never went
i stare into my iphone but i can’t find my friends
why then do i wait here drowning in my skin,
i’m always making mountains out of all the could’ve beens
Adeline
you’re fading
you’re losing all your colors
i wish i’d called
cause I don’t want you to change anymore
i don’t want you to change anymore
but what would I even say anymore
what could I even say anymore
come back find me when i’m 70
tell me you remember the words i used to sing
and we’ll watch life in reruns that play beneath our skin
hold me for the moment, forget the could’ve beens
Adeline
Adeline
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3. |
Austin
03:05
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Austin:
Last night I couldn’t find myself
So I’ll be home tonight.
Cause I don’t see myself in Austin
I don’t see myself in Austin
And sometimes I feel like reticence
Is keeping me alive
As these cars they roll right by me
With their drivers in the backseats
Well the fog is out in droves tonight,
Guess the world just wants me blind.
But I can see your face in front of me
– I can see your face in front of me
And I can’t memorize my lines
But it’s the same song every night
With your name across the melody
Now I’ve forgotten what you meant to me
Call me home tonight, stay on the line
Call me home tonight, stay on the line
Cause last night I couldn’t find myself
So I’ll be home tonight.
Cause I don’t see myself in Austin
I don’t see myself in Austin
And we’re singing along to Phoebe now
To remember how to cry
When I see myself in front of me –
And I look just like my dad to me
Singing “Blue Chair” in the living room in 1995
With a reminder in the melody:
There’s somewhere I’m supposed to be.
Call me home tonight, stay on the line
Call me home tonight, stay on the line
Call me home tonight, stay on the line
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4. |
Won't Stay Gone Forever
02:52
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Won’t Stay Gone Forever:
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone
I barely knew your name at the time…
But New York seemed to fit you just right.
And on the day you died I thought I heard you come back home,
To that bench in Central Park where they –
carefully scrawled your name
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone
The fireworks are sounding off tonight, in the city that cannot sleep
A man outside is singing to me –
“you made it here, you’ll make it anywhere”
But the street’s on fire and I just want to come back home
To the town you’d loved so desperately… it’s gone now with your memories…
We fucked up, our lives flew over our heads
So I guess we’ll lay low instead
I missed New York when out on the road
Now I’m here and I miss it from home
I spend my time like Bill on replay
I wake up each day and Brooklyn’s still changed
Cause all my friends live in video games
I facetime them to remember their names
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone forever
Won’t stay gone
Just meet me back in New York someday
Just meet me back in New York someday…
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Somewhere Else
03:34
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Somewhere Else:
I don’t want to be in this house
My blood is slowing me down
It’s Saturday night and I’m “singing for the lonely”
With you and “Thunder Road” on zoom karaoke
So we, we sing along, we sing along with ourselves
Cause now the zoom delay keeps you away from my house
(from my house, my house)
Oh it isn’t safe in my head
I can’t figure out
How to live in silence instead
When the world doesn’t make a sound
I don’t want to be in this house
Trust falling to catch myself
My blood is slowing me down
Running circles to somewhere else (x2)
Phones down and dance with me, oh won’t you dance with me
We’ll make a comeback –
Cause I just want to feel, oh I want to feel everything
Oh no, but I,
I keep lying, I keep lying - “everything’s alright”
When I know
It’s not fine – our whole lives stuck in the blue light
(in the blue light, the blue light)
Oh it isn’t safe in my head
I can’t figure out
How to live in silence instead
When the world doesn’t make a sound
I don’t want to be in this house
Trust falling to catch myself
My blood is slowing me down
Running circles to somewhere else
I don’t want to be in this house
Trust falling to catch myself (I can’t keep catching myself)
My blood is slowing me down
Running circles to somewhere else (I can’t get anywhere else)
Oh it isn’t safe in my head (I don’t want to be in this house)
I can’t figure out
How to live in silence instead (My blood is slowing me down)
When the world doesn’t make a sound
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In The Bad Times
01:52
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In The Bad Times:
When I texted you last night, I told you I was floating away
And I wished someone would tether me down, and that’s when you wrote back –
“same”
In the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I know you’ll stay
When you heard that he left me, you called me a car to your place
And we talked shit about him until I’d forgotten his name
In the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I know you’ll stay
You don’t know what that meant to me
You don’t know what that meant to me
We can’t stay sad all the time
You got my back in memories
You don’t know what that meant to me
We gave each other names to go by
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
I love you more in the bad times
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South
03:42
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South:
It was dark when you said we should go
Too late for mistakes, we can pack on the way
When a voice on the car radio
Said what you couldn’t say - a fragile refrain
And it’s calling out –
“Let’s drive south until we’re underground
We need some space to see ourselves”
I saw your eyes on the side of the road
They’re blue just the same, though your face has changed
Now there’s a part of you no one else knows
And you’ll never say, you never would say
Will you say it now?
“Let’s drive south until we’re underground
We need some space to see ourselves
Where you can scream out loud
Until your voice cuts out
And then the silence speaks for itself”
Hold me, why’d you have to leave me?
Did you say you want me?
Do you want me?
Hold me, why’d you have to leave me ?
Did you say you want me?
Do you want me?
No.
“Let’s drive south until we’re underground
We need some space to see ourselves
Where you can scream out loud
Until your voice cuts out
And then the silence speaks for itself”
It was dark when you said we should go
Now you’re not around
Who will hide from me now…
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Smoke In The House
03:49
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Smoke in the House:
It brings me down when you get in my head
It brings me down when you get in my head
Sitting on the couch by every single word you said
I’m not alone when you get in my head
I wrote this song with the last of your pen
From the hotel where you were fired again
Cuz you were always late – kept sleeping til eleven am
It brings me down that you’re stuck in my head
You can smoke in the back,
Smoke in the house --
Do it with them
Do it yourself
Cause I’m not there to put it out
Have a pack for the day
As you pack up my clothes
Brosé le dents so your mom doesn’t know
I’m sorry I took it out on myself
I bring you up like im picking a scar
So I take a pill to get out of the dark
You told me all the stories you won’t tell all your friends at the bar
It brings me down just to know who you are
You can smoke in the back,
Smoke in the house --
Do it with them
Do it yourself
Cause I’m not there to put it out
Have a pack for the day
As you pack up my clothes
Brosé le dents so your mom doesn’t know
I’m not gonna take it out on myself
I’ll get drunk on songs my sister loves
I tried to write one
About the dream with my dad
You’re on his girlfriend’s lawn --
The perfect setting for my conditional love song
I won’t let me down,
So I’ll sing it now.
Jack says I’m changing,
It’s not just the lexapro:
I stopped crying on zoom calls and
dating scorpios.
I know in my letter
I said I’d see you again
But, oh, you let me down.
Glad you let me down.
Bet you’d like me now.
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Run It Wild
02:44
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Run It Wild:
Calling my bluff – I’m running back home like I just saw the light.
I’ll get a dog the size of my apartment, that’s fine.
And this could be my whole life –
Coffee at night and I never get tired
I don’t want darkness, I just want to lie here…
Run it wild
Run it wild
There’s a life for you
Run it wild
Run it wild
Hold the light for you
Run it wild
Run it wild
There’s a life for you
But I can stay left behind if you want me to…
I can’t find the time, yeah,
It’s getting tough pushing through subway lines
You’re cool in the shade – it’s hot on the train, but I’m fine.
I’ll sift through my whole life to figure out why
I don’t want be anywhere else
Am I a liar?
I just want to lie here…
But if you don’t feel the same,
Build your life miles away –
I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Run it wild
Run it wild
There’s a life for you
Run it wild
Run it wild
Hold the light for you (x3)
Ok, lock myself out –
cut to your house on the side of the road
Ok, tear it all down –
now your not around, we can let this all go…
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